Pretty Lilacs. Because I cannot brain today.

It’s been a bad day for no reason. That happens sometimes, and it always chafes. Childhood conditioning lies like “If you’re resting, you could be achieving,”  are clingy, annoying, happiness-sucking monsters. Because I could.

If I had to, if my survival depended on productivity, I could be productive.  I could make more writing progress than I’m making. I could do more around the house, make more, be more.

But that productivity would exact a high physical and emotinal price, and  pushing costs down the road until there’s a meltdown or a crash just so I can say I MADE A THING is a bad life strategy. I know that.

My world is better and more pleasant when I do not drive myself hard. When I let days be days, even when days turn into weeks In Which Nothing Gets Done, I still get back on track faster than if I push.

But I’m not good at feeling it. Patience requires faith. Faith is slippery.

That’s where the flowers come in. Stopping to take pics & inhale fragrance and soak in colors is a reminder of how full my life is already, and that being here now is enough. Even on (the many) days when I don’t feel it’s enough. Especially then.

I’m in a good place. I won’t starve or be thrown out of my home or lose my health coverage because I didn’t create or reach a word goal or clean or bake or do anything but read and eat treats today (ditto yesterday and the day before, and the day before…) That’s a marvel and an astonishment I do not undervalue.

(Okay, on all the days I “did nothing” I did read, ate treats take care of many minimal personal & environmental care things that kept me active and comfortable, so clearly I need to revisit the whole concept of “doing nothing” at some point.

But not today. Today I am enjoying lilacs and resting.

(You can also view this pic on Instagram http://bit.ly/2Jwl7ZX)

 

Introducing some fine fictional people

Marcia Galloway art by Toni Johnson
 Say hello to Jack Coby, Kris Stanislav, and Amy Goodall, from Rough Passages. (What is Rough Passages? YOU know. That’s my book. The one you can buy by clicking here or by clicking the cover picture in the left-side column.

 

Like them? YES OF COURSE YOU LIKE THEM. Ahem. Well. I like them, anyway.

Here are a few more: Colonel Marcia Galloway & Captain Jefferson USMC, and Lance Cpl. Dante Fredericks

 

 Many thanks to Toni Johnson of @ToniJdotcom for these fantastic visualizations! If you want to know more about the characters, check out the Character Art Page for descriptions and biographies.
I’ll be using these illustrations to make collectible cards for all my Rough Passages stars, so expect more developments in the months to come.